Sunday, May 23, 2021

Sailing Through Coronavirus

In the brave new world created by the coronavirus, I unwillingly joined the afflicted multitude with a very minor head cold that surprisingly caused me to test positive.  The cold itself lasted two and a half days; the vacation required by my employer lasted two weeks.  In the frigid second half of January, then, I sought relief from my medically imposed home confinement by going outside and hiking around the neighborhood twice every day.  Bundled from head to toe in multiple layers, I marched through the snow-plowed residential streets and pretended that I was actually going somewhere.  As my feet dutifully tramped along the pavement, my mind wandered off to its customary destinations of the sea, the ships that sailed it, and the ports they visited.  One series of memories in particular lodged itself in my consciousness.  As I looked upon houses, snowbanks, and bare trees, I saw salt water, big ships, and motley crewmen from a winter four decades past.


The General Hoyt S. Vandenberg arrived at the Military Ocean Terminal in Bayonne, New Jersey, in the late afternoon of a raw and overcast Wednesday, November 21, 1979.  Chilled to the core by the weather, I suddenly realized how easily I had become accustomed to the comparative comforts of the South Atlantic and Caribbean.  Back in the real world of the American Northeast now for an extended period of shipyard repairs, it seemed like a long winter lay ahead of me.  But mitigating this circumstance was the fact that I had returned to my childhood home, a welcome respite from my normal vagabond life.


At 5:00pm on the Friday after Thanksgiving, during which I saw my parents and grandfather briefly, the General Vandenberg left the Bayonne headquarters and went to the shipyard.  Since many of the crew, including the Master, had departed for a long weekend ashore, this shift of berths was carried out with a reduced workforce.  Captain Glenn Sowash, one of the office folks, came aboard with the pilot for the uneventful passage across the Upper Bay to the Erie Basin. He was thus my boss for about two hours.  After the ship was secured to one of the Todd Shipyard piers in the Red Hook section of Brooklyn, a chauffeured automobile collected Captain Sowash and the pilot.  They kindly gave me, the junior third mate, a ride to the nearest subway station, and then I found my way to the Flatbush Avenue Terminal and caught a train home.


Beginning the next day, I commuted to the General Vandenberg via trains to downtown Brooklyn and then by bus to Red Hook.  The Todd Shipyard, fronting on Beard and Halleck Streets, was conveniently situated at the end of the bus line.  This arrangement was necessitated by the shutdown of the ship’s engineering plant.  There would be no heat, no hot water, and no food service during the shipyard overhaul.  The skeleton crew that remained with the ship was placed on “S & Q,” that is, subsistence and quarters, for the duration.  This meant that the company gave us cash and told us to use it for room and board ashore.  I was fortunate.  Staying at the nearby family headquarters was much more palatable than putting up in a waterfront flophouse!


This arrangement lasted through December and most of January.  We worked on rotating shifts: 12:00 midnight to 8:00am, 8:00am to 4:00pm, and 4:00pm to 12:00 midnight.  With these schedules, I commuted to and from the General Vandenberg at both normal and off-peak hours.  The trains and buses ran all day and all night, though, so this was not problematic except for one brief transit strike.  Otherwise, it went well, and I became quite familiar with several of the old landmarks of downtown Brooklyn as I made the connections between buses and trains.


This part I found quite interesting.  I had always enjoyed sightseeing by walking around town in the seaports I visited, and Brooklyn was no exception.  Borough Hall, the Municipal Building, Cadman Plaza, the Flatbush Avenue Terminal, and the Brooklyn Law School all became well known to me by both day and night.  In two months’ time, I hiked many miles through downtown Brooklyn and got plenty of fresh air and exercise.  I always felt comfortable and safe, and never had any trouble with or felt threatened by anyone.  This was true at the end of the bus line in Red Hook as well, despite that neighborhood’s less than stellar reputation.  The bus stop was only a short walk from the shipyard entrance, and I came and went there in the early morning, late afternoon, and midnight without any difficulty at all.


Some of the General Vandenberg’s deckhands felt differently about this, though, as I learned later.  These fellows gathered late at night at Sam’s Bar and Grill on Beard Street, diagonally across from the shipyard and close to the bus stop, and they frequently saw me walking between the shipyard and the bus stop.  I noticed the lights and heard the music from Sam’s, and sometimes saw men loitering by the front door, but otherwise, I scarcely gave the place a thought.  Of much greater interest to me was the Brooklyn Law School, at the corner of Fulton Street and Boerum Place downtown.  When I walked by this iconic structure and saw the students studying at the big library tables inside, I thought that maybe I should look into it for myself.  Even then, I realized that the shipping business would likely not last forever.


Misgivings like this notwithstanding, the General Vandenberg’s overhaul at the Todd Shipyard was a busy time.  Major repairs were done in the engine room, the crew’s accommodations, and on the weather decks.  The ship was drydocked, and the entire hull sandblasted and repainted.  Finally, all lifesaving and firefighting equipment was inspected, tested, and repaired as necessary.  Day shifts were thus filled with commotion; night times were comparatively quiet with reduced activity.  One interesting fringe benefit was the view.  The Erie Basin itself was not much to look at, but the skyscrapers of Lower Manhattan, two and one quarter miles away to the northwest, were clearly visible both day and night over the rooftops of Red Hook.


All this came to an end on Monday, January 28, 1980.  Following some last-minute work on the sewage pumps, the General Vandenberg left Brooklyn three hours late at 3:15pm and sailed south toward Florida.  I went with mixed feelings.  The shipyard period had proved a bonanza for me with a return to my childhood home and time spent with my family. Most significantly, in early December I met Miss Patty, the girl who would one day become my wife.  That day stood off in the distance, as did the day I would sail with a General Vandenberg crewman on another ship.


One of the deckhands who patronized Sam’s Bar and Grill was Steve Zander, an ordinary seaman and often the overnight security patrolman on the General Vandenberg.   Steve was a quiet, introverted, and bright young man.  He did not talk very much, but when he did he spoke thoughtfully and philosophically.  It was through him that I learned that I had unwittingly been the star of the show at Sam’s.


In the latter part of 1980, I sailed with Steve aboard the Wilkes.  One warm and quiet night in mid-Atlantic, he told me the story of Sam’s.  Some of the guys from the General Vandenberg who watched me coming and going at midnight became convinced that I would sooner or later be “rolled,” that is, attacked, robbed, beaten up, and left for dead in the dark alleyway next to Sam’s.  They passed a calendar around the bar, and everyone picked a date for my expected demise and put money on it.  One fellow was chosen to safeguard the cash, and later he would award it to the winner when the inevitable happened.


By the time the General Vandenberg sailed in late January, I had safely made my commute many times.  I never did get rolled.  The boys at Sam’s were reportedly happy for my safety, but disappointed that no one had won the jackpot.  The custodian of the cash gave all the money back, and the lottery concluded uneventfully.  In discussing how it could have ended this way, the guys reasoned that I was either a whole lot tougher than I looked and therefore safer than they thought, or that since I was a native New Yorker I instinctively knew how to get along in the city without getting into trouble.  Whatever, I thought with a laugh!


Four decades later, I was walking around Nashua, patiently waiting to go back to work after my coronavirus quarantine.  I have returned to downtown Brooklyn a few times over the years, but I never rode the bus back to Red Hook.  The Todd Shipyard there closed down in 1986.  Then the property passed through several owners.  Finally, all the shipyard buildings and facilities were demolished in 2006.  An Ikea store now occupies much of the site.  Adjacent to this structure sits a parking lot, built on top of the now filled-in drydocks. Only a few vestiges of the Todd years remain.[1]


I don’t know if Sam’s Bar and Grill is still there.  I’m inclined to doubt it, though, because without the shipyard, Sam would stand to lose a lot of business.


The General Vandenberg is long gone.  She went out with a bang, quite literally, when explosives were detonated in her lower holds in order to sink her as an artificial reef near Key West, Florida, on Wednesday, May 27, 2009.[2]


For my part, I never did look into attending the Brooklyn Law School or any other law school.  Instead, I sailed as long as I could, got married, bought a house in New Hampshire, and had a family.  Perhaps if I had gone to law school I would now be a big shot attorney or a distinguished federal appeals court judge.  But I’m content where I am.  I’d rather play with my grandchildren than do paperwork in a law office or settle disputes in a courtroom.


As my feet marched and as my mind sailed through my coronavirus exile, I thought in Conradian terms and turned “for sustenance to memories,”[3] and these memories carried me a long way.  At such a distance of time, they were most of what was left.  The far reaches of the past were “Only a moment; a moment of strength, of romance, of glamour—of youth!”[4]  Yes, I was young once, and in a world which was very different from the one that we inhabit now.




[1] Information from www.shipbuildinghistory.com, www.ltvsquad.com, and Google Maps. 

[2] This event is depicted in several YouTube videos.  The full episode is at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fI8JsunVQ0 but partial versions can be found elsewhere.  

[3] Joseph Conrad, in Jerry Allen, The Sea Years of Joseph Conrad, Garden City, NY: Doubleday & Company, Inc., 1965, p. xii/ 

[4] Joseph Conrad, in M. Harriet M. Capes, Wisdom and Beauty from Conrad, New York: Doubleday, Page & Co., n.d., p. 131.

Sunday, October 4, 2020

Watching the Waves

A very long time ago, in the 1950s and 1960s, my family vacationed in Falmouth on Cape Cod in Massachusetts.  Many New Yorkers flocked to Cape Cod every summer in search of peace and quiet, rest and relaxation, and uncrowded beaches.  My parents and grandparents rented a cottage within easy walking distance of the beach on Vineyard Sound, and the six of us, including my brother and myself, stayed there for a couple of weeks every summer for several years.  I was very young then, so I remember these vacations rather vaguely.  What I remember better is my parents’ and grandparents’ subsequent reminiscences of these happy times.

 

Since then, I’ve scarcely given Cape Cod a thought, until quite recently.  A few years ago, in September of 2015, Miss Patty and I had some family history business in southeastern Massachusetts, and when we had finished up in Buzzards Bay, we drove across the Bourne Bridge to the Cape on the spur of the moment.  On this impulsive sojourn, we visited the historical society in Woods Hole and the lighthouse at Nobska Point.  Favorably impressed, we agreed that we must return sometime for a longer duration.

 

This second and extended visit to Cape Cod took place last month, five years after the first.  In three days we combined additional family history research with quiet moments at the waterfront  Returning to Nobska Point on Tuesday morning, September 15, we took in the magnificent view of Vineyard Sound, the island of Martha’s Vineyard beyond, and the ferries Island Home and Martha’s Vineyard plying their routes between the mainland and the island.  A pristine and peaceful location, Nobska Point silently invited us to linger and leave behind the cares and concerns of the world.  This we could not do completely, however, as the site was tinged with tragedy.  A bronze and stone monument surrounded by flowers and American flags commemorated the untimely death of Nellie Anne Hellernan Casey, a local resident who was killed in the terrorist attack of September 11, 2001.  Very sad, of course, but also very fitting.  The view of the sea beyond the memorial bespoke the necessary existence of a supreme Creator-God, and his revelation of the eternal Gospel gave assurance that his omnibenevolence would ultimately and inevitably prevail.  An atmosphere of peace and serenity thus surrounded the site

 

I could have gladly spent most of the day at Nobska Point, basking in its quiet beauty and peacefulness .  The strong, late summer Sun was becoming too much for Miss Patty, however, and we had additional ground to cover, too, so we needed to move on.        

 

Mid-day found us briefly in Hyannis, visiting the John F. Kennedy Memorial that overlooked the port.  Another beautiful site tinged with sadness, it also spoke silently of the Divine and exuded a sublime serenity.  In the distance, the ferry Eagle sailed across the placid surface of Hyannis Harbor as she departed for Nantucket, asserting thereby that despite tragedy, the voyage of life would always continue. 

 

These two spiritual havens on the Cape Cod seashore testified quietly of the Lord’s plan for his people, even in the face of tragedy.  The scriptural admonition to “let your hearts be comforted” came to mind, “for all flesh is in mine hands; be still and know that I am God” (D&C 101:16).. 

 

I have long thought of God in seafaring terms, as the Master and Chief Engineer of the universe.  Recognizing him thus as the supreme authority has enabled me, when considering events too monstrous for the human mind’s limited understanding, to accept what he said through the prophet Isaiah: “as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts” (Isa. 55:9).  This counsel, coupled with the knowledge that we all came into this imperfect world to grow through experience and prepare for life in the perfect world hereafter, has given me a better understanding of the human condition and its ultimate purpose.

 

The next day, Wednesday the 16th, we needed to leave Cape Cod and return home to Nashua.  Not too early, though, for I was in no hurry to pry myself away from the seashore.  That morning, I arose before dawn and made the twenty minutes’ walk from the motel to the beach on Vineyard Sound.  Few people were out and about at that time of day, so I had the waterfront almost entirely to myself.  Sitting on a park bench and facing seaward, I spent an hour and more in the gradually growing daylight feeling the onshore breeze and watching the waves wash up on the sand and then recede.  I would have been happy to remain there all morning.  Watching the waves has always helped me to feel at peace in an often unpeaceful world.

 

Additionally, as I gazed seaward I thought of the family vacations of so many years ago.  The cluster of nearby cottages where we had stayed was now mostly gone.  For a moment I wondered if my parents and grandparents, all of them now gone as well, could see me back at the beach where we used to go swimming.  After nearly six decades, I had returned to Cape Cod and rediscovered its peace and quiet, its rest and relaxation, and its uncrowded beaches.  A perfect setting for a memorable spiritual experience!

 

Now I would like to share a few photographs.  This first one shows yours truly at the age of two and a half on the beach in Falmouth in the summer of 1960.  Six decades ago now!

 


Fifty-five years later, on Saturday, September 19, 2015, we see the Nobska Light at Nobska Point in Falmouth:

 


On the same day, looking seaward from Nobska Point, we watch as the ferry Island Home approaches the terminal in nearby Woods Hole at the end of her voyage from Martha’s Vineyard:

 


Same ship; different day.  Here the Island Home sails in the opposite direction, toward Martha’s Vineyard, on Tuesday, September 15, 2020:

 


Same day; different ship.  I’m not entirely certain, but I believe this is the Martha’s Vineyard, returning from her namesake island and bound for Woods Hole:

 


Next, we view with sadness the monument to the local victim of the terrorist attack of nineteen years ago:

 


Now in Hyannis later on the same day, we visit the memorial to President John F. Kennedy.  Hyannis Harbor fills the background beyond the fountain and plaza:

 


Finally, watching from the JFK plaza, we view the ferry Eagle leaving Hyannis and beginning her voyage to Nantucket:

 


Sunday, September 20, 2020

Set in Stone

This past summer Miss Patty gave me a book.  This gift did not mark any special occasion such as a birthday or anniversary, so it arrived unexpectedly.  She had found it at a local bargain shop, thought that I would like it, and then surprised me with it.  For two reasons, I liked it very much, and so I was pleased to receive it and add it to my library.  First, it concerned a sublime and uplifting subject, and second, it brought back memories of a special event that had taken place during my time aboard the Rigel in the Mediterranean.

 

The Rigel sailed from Norfolk, Virginia, on Tuesday, May 22, 1979, with me on board as a brand new third mate.   She transited the Strait of Gibraltar during the midnight hours of Saturday, June   2, and docked in Malaga, Spain, the following morning.  She then spent the summer hauling military cargo around the Mediterranean.  A busy ship with a crowded itinerary, the Rigel made many short voyages and visited many ports.  Opportunities to go ashore and see the sights abounded, but usually for only brief intervals.  Occasionally, an exception arose, and one of these yielded an especially remarkable experience.  Over the weekend of June 16 and 17, the ship rested idly at the Stazione Maritima in Napoli.  With no work to be done other than basic watch standing, most of the crew seized the opportunity to enjoy a weekend off in sunny Italy.  Early on Saturday morning, then, four of us boarded a train at the big Neapolitan station and set out for Rome.  On arrival at Roma Termini, we took a taxi to the Hotel Bramante on the Vicolo delle Palline, a quiet side street near the Vatican.

 

Long acknowledged as one of the premiere cities of the world, Rome was a truly fascinating place.  Saturated with centuries of history, magnificent art and architecture, and of course, Christianity, the eternal city offered more to see and do than we could possibly fit into one short weekend.  Undaunted, though, we took in as much as we could in the limited time that we had.  On Sunday evening, we returned to Roma Termini and took the last train back to Napoli.  Monday morning found us all back at work aboard the Rigel.

 

Of all the artistic treasures in Rome, one marble statue in particular stood out because of its tremendous beauty and simplicity and its unique historical and spiritual significance.  This was Michelangelo’s masterpiece, the Pietà.  Perhaps the best known and most admired statue in all Christendom, the Pietà caught my attention, drew me into itself, and held me there for a very long time.  It stood silent and sublime, radiating spiritualty and witnessing to the atoning sacrifice of the Savior and the eternal truth of the Gospel.  A reverent isolation surrounded the statue, which was remarkable in a building otherwise filled with visitors.  I thus gazed in quiet solitude at the Pietà and studied it undisturbed from every angle.  Even my shipmates had disappeared for a while and left me to experience the Pietà on my own.  

 

And what an experience it was!  The Pietà appeared so life-like that I had to remind myself that it was, in fact, marble.  Mere words in pedestrian English cannot describe the marble Pietà’s ability to convey human emotion, to speak silently to the human heart, and to testify infallibly of the divine work of salvation for all people.  For me, it was simply an ineffable experience that left little to say but so very much to quietly contemplate.  Forty-one years afterwards, I found these lines in the book that Miss Patty gave me sufficient to the occasion:

 

There is so much in the Pietà that if you lived a thousand years and

wrote a thousand books you can never express it.  In other words,

there is a divine quality in it.  It must have been inspired, because

how could a boy, twenty-four years old, create a work like that?

You can’t imagine how.  It was a special grace from God.  It is true,

he had to be an artist, but art alone could not have made the Pietà

 

The Pietà transforms you inwardly.  A prayerful spirit comes over

you.  It changes people.[1]

 

This book, a collection of photographs with only limited text, contained striking black-and-white images of the Pietà which were so detailed and life-like that studying them almost became a second visit to the statue.  Thus, the inward transformation and change wrought by the Pietà were renewed, resulting in a second epiphany.  Beyond acknowledging this, any attempt to express something so supernal in human language would prove meaningless.

 

And so I returned to my ship, changed and transformed.  The Rigel remained busy in Napoli for a week.  She loaded and discharged cargo, shifted berths twice, and finally sailed for Souda Bay, Greece, on Saturday, June 23.  She returned to Napoli several weeks later, but without the leisure time for a second Roman holiday.  A unique opportunity at the time, my weekend in Rome and experience of the Pietà is now a treasured memory, and my new book of Pietà photographs helps me to remember and relive this special occasion.

 

While I was in Rome, I bought two postcard depictions of the Pietà.  These are much better quality than any pictures that I could have taken, but still only a substitute for actually seeing the statue.  Nonetheless, I’m happy to share them here: 

 





[1] Charles Rich, quoted in Robert Hupka, Michelangelo Pietà, New York: Crown Publishers, Inc., 1975, p. 80.